I Am AliveYou're time means you care enough to see,
I know i'm asking a lot,
But please tolerate me,
I need a hug,
I need a hand to hold.
It feels so cold,
The tattered hearts that time consume.
Damaged way beyond repair.
Could you sit and talk to me,
Maybe and walk with me,
Because i am here.
Could you talk to me,
Could you want me,
Make me feel wanted enough,
I am here,
Please stop blocking me out.
FailureAt this rate it's pointless to cry,
It just makes my head hurt,
It makes things feel worse.
At this point there's nothing to do but try,
Failure seems so close.
Hearing the yelling,
Trying to keep from breaking,
Hearing the harsh words,
Trying to pretend i never heard.
I wanna be like i was before,
Not noticing you're faults,
I wish i could pretend this is not happening.
Crash and BurnI hate seeing this happen to you,
The stress is making everyone crash,
You're really losing it this time,
It's scary to see you losing you're mind,
And i fear,
What will happen in a year,
Will this be over,
Will it have gotten worse.
Every time i see you,
It's like i'm watching you crash and burn,
Do you know what you're doing to me?
Do you know what you're doing to yourself?
Am i overreacting,
Or is turning into much more than we handle.
But why does everything need to crash now,
I was so excited to finally be older,
And now the world seems so vast now,
Everyone can be so ignorant.
It is driving me mad,
Trying to pretend,
You're not killing me.
Don't ask me whats wrong,
Because you'll just get angry,
Don't say you can help,
You need it more than me.
I know how you feelI hate seeing you all with those frowns,
Sad eyes filled up with tears,
I try to help,
But i'm just a hypocrite,
It's just because i know how it feels,
To be on the edge,
I know how it feels,
To feel all alone when it seems like no body cares,
So when ever you're upset,
I'll be glad to lend a hand,
Because i know it feels,
When no body cares,
When everybody stares,
But they don't say a words,
When you're broken and crying,
When you're world feels empty,
I promise i will care,
If you need it i'll be there,
Because i feel alone like that sometimes,
I know how bad it can be,
I'm just as sad as you now,
So i want to help out,
You don't deserve the pain,
You shouldn't be feeling this way.
Too QuietI'd like to complain,
I'd love to rant and vent and explain exactly whats wrong,
It won't help though,
All i'd be doing is annoying people,
I don't want to shove my problems onto somebody else.
Why should anyone care why i'm upset,
Why should anyone else have to hear my problems,
My friend's prefer me happy anyways,
So why should i be sad around them,
It's hard though,
It's hard not to let it show when i'm depressed,
I wish i didn't always worry about what other's thought of me,
I wish i could just let everything out,
But i care about my friends more then i care about myself,
And i know it's hard to stay friends with someone when they are always complaining.
It's hard though,
It's hard to stay quiet when i'm so sad,
Trying not to get angry,
Sometimes i wish i could let myself get upset, drop my pride, and talk to my friends with out worrying if it annoys them.
It would help a lot if i wasn't so self conscious,
It would help a lot if i wasn't always looking for approval,
I don't know wh
If You Ever Need A HugI hate to see anyone so sad,
I don't care who you are,
Please don't feel bad,
I am here for anyone who needs it,
Ask me for help when you feel sad.
I might not help much but i try.
You can tell me anything,
Just trust me,
If you need to feel loved just call me,
If you're scared i'll come running,
I don't care who you are,
Everybody needs love.
I'll do what i can,
I will try and pull you up again,
I know i don't look like much,
But i can give pretty good hugs <3
When I Need ThemI have learned to quietly do as i'm told,
Not to argue or joke,
It seems wrong when i'm sad,
Because it's when i should be mad,
I crumble so easily,
It barely takes anything,
I reach out only to see,
Everyone walk away from me,
The ones i really want to talk to,
Seem to not care when i need to,
It hurts when they ignore me,
It's like they only like me when i'm acting silly,
I wish they would talk to me,
And even when they do i feel guilty,
I feel so guilty dumping all my problems on someone else,
I don't want anyone to worry about me,
I just want them to care,
I know how hard that is,
I know it's hard to be there.
Especially for me,
I over react,
I may everything seem like a tragedy,
I can't help but wonder how they tolerate me.