ArtMy pencil is broken,
I ran out of paper,
My mind isn't working right,
I need to write or draw,
I need to get the ideas on paper,
Out of my head,
I can't concentrate till i do.
I write to keep sane,
I draw to stay calm,
Art is part of who i am,
I need art so i can hold on.
Don't you dare say it's pointless,
It saves lives and brings joy,
It's beautiful and wonderful and always perfect,
All art has meaning.
All art is important.
Glass and PaperBeing around is like handling fragile glass,
If i get too close i get nervous,
If i try and help you get off the ground i might drop you,
If you shatter i'll panic,
And cleaning up the pieces is so dangerous.
Talking to you is like standing on the edge of a cliff,
I can't be too careless,
I'll fall and end it all.
To you i'm like thin tracing paper,
You're scared to be around me,
Because you have to be gentle,
I tear much too easy,
And you can try and fix me,
But i won't be perfect.
ItThe door slammed and it was dark and cold,
The figure smiled but never spoke,
Thoughts went rapidly through their head,
Morbid questions like "Am i alive or dead?"
Broken kites and shattered lights scattered in it's dreams,
Completely unaware that it's reality was so horridly obscene,
It had pleasant smile plastered to it's face,
It had a smile the world could never replace.
In it's heart it had questions most never had to deal with;
"What am i?"
"Is this my true home?"
"What is my name?"
"Am i always this alone?"
Judgement never found it so it never felt sad.
It tried to feel emotions,
But it only felt glad,
Though it's questions were awful,
They seemed normal to it.
Only it isn't real,
It stands only to hold,
The questions and answers the world will never know.
Thanks AlotIt's so nice to see you care.
It feels so great to know you're here.
It's like you never cared,
It's like you were never there.
You leave me all alone,
It's only bad because you know,
You know i'm depressed,
But you really couldn't care less.
sick of meI'll go off somewhere else,
When where i am turns to hell,
I go to where my friends are and ask for help,
Turns out they don't care either.
I feel ignored by them too,
I'm so foolish to expect them to care right now,
I just got so used to it before,
But now it's like they are all sick of me.
StopDon't tell me i'm being dramatic,
Don't tell me i just want attention,
First of all i shouldn't need to beg for attention,
If you really care about me then you wouldn't be ignoring me.
Second of all i'm not being dramatic,
And if i am it's only because that's how i really feel.
I'm sick of you looking down on me.
I hate myself at times like these,
I see my flaws clearer than you,
You don't need to remind me,
It's killing me,
You are all i have,
Let me show how much i'm hurting,
Don't laugh at me when you see me crying,
It's not fair,
I wish you would stop acting like this,
I need someone now,
I need to be cared about.
Take HimHe tried to be good
But his history stood,
An obvious change was made,
But too obvious to believe,
The ones known for seeing through lies;
Swore they could see through his eyes,
They said he hadn't changed at all.
He tried so hard,
To get them to believe him,
But all they did,
But stare right past him,
How were they so blind.
He's desperate now,
He'll do anything,
Just accept him please,
It's killing me,
I tried so hard,
But it's all so far.
He's asking you know,
To hear him out,
He is so much nicer now.
He's guilty and sad,
Can't you please see that,
At least pretend for a while.
It's worth the risk,
Just to take him in,
It's pure cold falling down.
Take him in.
I Still Need Love....I'm making it obvious,
I'm showing every scar now,
I'm asking for you're help,
Why don't you care.
I know i stopped cutting,
I know i'm not sobbing,
That doesn't mean i am not hurting.
I know i say i'm better,
Compared to before i guess it's very true,
But that doesn't mean i don't need you.
I know i'm stronger than that,
But i could still use a friend,
One who really cares,
One who notices,
I could really use that.
You Promised...You promised you'd walk with me,
You promised you'd talk with me,
You promised we'd laugh,
You promised we'd have the time of our lives.
You promised you quit,
You promised you were done,
You told me you are okay,
You told me you loved me enough to stay by my side.
You promised we'd be okay,
You promised we could still pray,
You promised that you had hope to keep living and that it was ending,
You said i could trust you,
You said "I Love You."
Did you remember me when the thought came into you're head,
Did you remember me crying,
Did you remember me dying,
Did you ever imagine you were killing two birds with one stone.
Now it's all too late,
You swore you threw it out,
But with all of you'r lies,
Your planning to end you're own life.